I wasn't ready...

Have you ever read a book or a blog or a quote that just hits you.... the WRONG way. 

So much so that you actually HATED  the message it was conveying. 

I have had this experience with two books in my life.... The first was 'Daring Greatly' by Brene' Brown and the second was 'The One Thing' by Gary Keller.

I read both of these books for the first time about 5 years ago. At that point in my life I was living the hustle mentality and I had every piece of armor on... they were my protective mechanisms. They had served a purpose at some point...

As I read 'Daring Greatly' back then I remember physically rolling my eyes at Brene’ telling me that I should get vulnerable. I was like, sister, do you even know how hard it is to keep people out? I had finally gotten good at keeping my emotions and true self buried deep within...and now she is telling me that I should be doing the OPPOSITE!!

Book Closed.

Put on Shelf.

Armor Back On.

Still Lonely.....

'The One Thing' hit me in the exact same way. Up until reading the book I had been working non-stop... staying busy. I thought Keller was talking crazy when he said that multi-tasking is a lie and that there is no such thing as work/life balance. Again, this book sent me reeling because I was living life completely OPPOSITE than what he was suggesting. 

Book Closed.

Put On Shelf.

Back to Hustle Mode.

Still Exhausted.....

Last year I re-read both of these books. I guess I was ready. 

Living my life with armor on had become too lonely...

Living my life in hustle mode was too exhausting...

The protective mechanisms that I had needed in the past were no longer serving me.

I think it was fear that kept me from being open to these books...I was afraid to look at life differently. I was afraid of looking weak or like a failure. I was afraid of what people would say as a result of my change.

But the fears are no longer holding me back...I have now read both these books multiple times and learn something new each time. I love that they challenge me and my status quo. Now these are two of my favorites!!

Has this ever happened to you? Have to read something that you just weren’t quite ready for?